Future Self
Photo by Clem Onojeghuo on Unsplash
February 2023
What I wish you knew.
Written from the perspective of 50-year-old Gino to present Gino:
How perfect everything is. How great of a job you’re doing. How you’re exactly where you need to be, with exactly whom you should be with, doing exactly what you need to be doing. There are no dangerous mountaintops you must summit to prove your worth. Your blood on the soil will not demonstrate your valor. You are in the fire that is molding you with fierce love into what you have always been. The impurities are being charred and left to ash, which will feed new life. You are the manifestation of everything you have been pouring your heart into. Every creative endeavor you have pursued has been the soil that created the fruit you now enjoy. Enjoy it. Taste how sweet this season is. Winter is only temporarily necessary.
You have chosen a path that is not for the timid. You prayed, and you received. You may pray for more ease if that is what your spirit needs. This is not a contest of the unstoppable will. This is a dance, which can only be appreciated by the pauses between the movements. There is no glory in whirling into a frenzy and falling off the stage. Sit down. On the earth. Observe. You are surrounded by teachers. All that you yearn for is at your fingertips and in the process of being birthed, simply by identifying the desire in your gut and speaking it aloud. Trust that you are being guided in every moment to bring about the manifestation of those desires.
This has always been and will always be how things work. I am not wiser than you. I am more experienced than you. I have the benefit of hindsight. Enough to tell you what you need to know. Smile. Enjoy. Release the need for control which will always be a fantasy that lives just beyond the horizon. The great power of surrender is swirling through your being and you have already tasted its glorious fragrance. Become permeated with the force of the universe, always reaching towards the divine order of chaos. The patterns that bring you joy in the tapestry of your imagination are blankets to keep you warm when you think you no longer have it figured out. This is the perfect moment to rest. Let the answers rise up within. The seeking with ambition and determination will only lead you in circles. The way to move forward on the righteous, long and narrow path is to fall into the abyss. The nonlinear truth of life will find you there and remind you that you are always home. You could never be homeless for you are always near the fire of creation, even when your limbs are frostbitten and decayed.